Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Not what I had in mind.

My sister took a picture of us at the zoo. I always try to keep and open mind when I see pictures of myself cause I usually get pretty down, but the truth is I didn't really want to have kids. I didnt want this life. And with four kids I can't pay some one $70 bucks an hour to listen to this so work with me. I was ok with Dallin and then from there birth control screwed me over big time. I have been told that I would be able to sue in some cases but how nice would that be to have your kid know you got a heavy check in the mail from a law suite based on how upset you were that you got pregnant with them. "In fact we didn't want you so bad we went ahead and sued". Either way I have been prego on and off for the past 6 years. And look what its done for me. I included pictures of us when we first got married. If you don't want this to happen to you I can send you a list of what birth control methods I used that didn't work. I originally wanted 5 Phd's from a university now I am aiming for two maybe? If my emphases were on childcare I could get one under my belt faster. It was considered a good thing to get married off younger than the old hags (25 year olds) at BYU. It meant you were pretty. But you end up having kids loosing your identity and in the end not so pretty.
Does any one want to take me out to lunch where there isn't a play place?


Rachel said...

I'll tak you, let's go. BTW... where are you, a family reunion? Can't put my finger on it. I think the bandana is throwing me off a little.

sean and lynsee said...

Just think if you didn't have kids. You wouldn't be friends with all of us because you wouldn't be coming to playgroup. Playgroup would be a real drag without you telling all of your hilarious stories. I was telling Sean about what you think nutrisystem tastes like and you even got him laughing.

lynsee said...

I think you look great Camille. Don't be so hard on yourself. I truly believe women are the prettiest at age 30 than it's downhill from there.